Rest in peace, Scott McKinnon, aka Mink Staccato

When you go looking for something specific, your chances of finding it are very bad. Because of all the things in the world, you’re only looking for one of them. When you go looking for anything at all, your chances of finding it are very good. Because of all the things in the world, you’re sure to find some of them.

-The Zero Effect

I’ve dreaded this day for a long time. Quarter to Three has been a small close community for over a decade. We know each other about as well as any group of online people can know each other. Which is to say we know each other pretty well. When one of us dies, it will really matter. We will feel the absence. We will grieve.

That day is here. Scott McKinnon, who has been posting as Mink Staccato for a few years now, took his own life on Sunday.

In addition to knowing Scott from the forum, I got to spend a few hours with him online when we recorded a podcast last November. It was one of the most enjoyable podcasts I’ve ever done. Scott and I clicked. He was the kind of guy who made me wish we lived in the same city. He was kind, friendly, thoughtful, funny, observant, smart, and just the right amount of cynical and world weary. He had gravity and substance. He was passionate about pinball, which is a pretty cool thing to be passionate about. He also seemed restless, like he wanted to be somewhere else, somewhere better, and he was determined to commit the time, effort, and introspection to get there. But for whatever reason, he chose another path on Sunday.

Scott was a photographer (above is a self portrait from a series of pictures he took of himself sitting in his various classrooms at the University of Oregon in Eugene, where he was working on a degree in art). You can see some of my favorite of his pictures after the jump. You can see more on his blog here. And you can get to know him a little better in this podcast, which we recorded last November.

Scott, you are missed.

  • Sidd_Budd

    I’m thankful he was part of the community here, & that he had an opportunity to share some of his experiences with us on the forum & with you on the podcast. My condolences to all who knew him.

  • Gormongous

    That’s so terrible to hear. I don’t profess to be part of the community, but I follow things on Quarter to Three avidly and always remembered Scott’s podcast as one of the most charismatic and sincere. Truly a loss, to those who knew him and to us who never got a chance to.

  • Thongsy

    I’m fairly new to being active in the forums so I didn’t know him well, but I do listen to all the podcast and enjoyed his. May he rest in peace, and my condolences to his friends and family.

  • Spacemonkey

    I am even more saddened by the fact that he and I lived in the same town all this time and I never had the pleasure of meeting him. A real loss for both of these beautiful, odd little communities.

  • Lisa Brown

    R.I.P.

  • http://matchstickeyes.wordpress.com Peter S (Mind Elemental)

    That is terrible and tragic news, to which my first response was disbelief. RIP.

  • Rikard Stromberg (Riztro)

    Rest in peace Scott McKinnon.

  • someone

    Tom, that was a very nice obituary.

  • http://www.mmorpg.com/blogs/OddjobXL Brian Rucker

    I think that’s, in some part, a way he’d like to be remembered.

  • http://www.yellow-menace.com Musashi

    I’m terribly sorry to hear of his passing. I can’t say I had the pleasure of interacting with him on the forums, but I hope he’s found the peace he couldn’t find in life.

  • Rob Simmon (manresa)

    Hard to believe. His personality came through so strongly on the podcast, I feel like I knew him, just a little tiny bit. R.I.P.

  • Greg Bemis

    I always liked to hear his advice and wisdom on the art of Pinball. This is really sad.

  • Lee

    Really sad news, I only knew you from your astonishing pinball scores. Rest peacefully Scott.

  • http://www.flashofsteel.com Troy Goodfellow

    :(

  • Telefrog

    My condolences to his friends and family.

  • Kool Moe Dee

    My condolences as well. I’m shocked — I really enjoyed the podcast featuring him, and it’s hard to reconcile the obvious energy and good-humored nature on display there with this news today.

  • http://rycheguard.net Corey Krosting

    I’m am very saddened at Scott’s passing and my heart goes out to everyone that loved him. From the podcast you and he did Tom I felt that he had a great joy for life.

  • Michael Sayre

    Thank You Tom and everybody for the kind words.

    Scott was one of a kind and I miss him so much.

    If anyone has any similar feelings, let some good come from this – Please talk to somebody, tell somebody.

    ~bluejackalope~

  • Alistair

    Good lord. How terrible. Words aren’t enough – rest in peace.

  • Jonathan Crane

    This is terribly sad news. I think of him every now and then when playing pinball, especially when I’m trying to lower the kinetic energy of the table, or let the ball passively move from flipper to flipper. His podcast with Tom was great to listen to, and really got me thinking seriously about Pinball for the first time in my life.

  • Jeff P.

    This is so sad. Scott, we wanted you to stay with us here on Earth. We miss you.

  • Jason McMaster

    Aw man.

    Just, aw man.

    He will be missed.

  • Erin

    Scott, I hope you got to where you wanted to go. You were awesome to know on this side and I’ll forever be grateful to your kindness. I remember you ordered the tumeric chicken, you made me laugh and feel so good. You made people feel exceptional in your company and we’ll miss you.

  • Jason Cross

    This is the kind of news that makes me feel bad to post a comment about it. As if there was a comment I could write that wouldn’t be cheap, and meaningless, and self-serving.

    I don’t envy you, Tom, dealing with writing a post about it. What you said was very nicely put, and I’m sure it was appreciated by those that knew Scott.

  • Austin Arlitt

    I was just on my way to go play pinball when I saw this. He will be missed in that community as well as this one. :(

  • krise madsen

    :(

  • Brian Young

    You’ll be missed, Scott. My thoughts are with all those affected by this tragedy.

  • Wigglestick

    May he know endless days of fun in Heaven’s pinball arcade.

  • Aeneas

    :-(

  • robin walbeck-forrest

    i’ve been scouring the web for the past two days, since hearing the news, looking for ways to reconnect with my dear friend scott, whom i lost touch with years ago.

    i found his blog, his photos, his connection to the pinball and gaming world, his alias as mink staccato. i’m not surprised he touched so many lives in a positive way. scott was always an amazing guy. full of intellect and creativity, wit and wonder, with an incredible smile and a fantastic sense of humor. he always made me laugh.

    thank you for posting this tribute to scott, and for all the comments. it has been hard trying to make sense of this, but it’s comforting to know that his joy and light met so many others. i just wish he could have stayed with us all.

  • http://www.quartertothree.com/game-talk/member.php?u=721 Andrew Myers

    No words. This sucks.

  • Chris

    Farewell and rest in peace Scott.

  • Albert Woo

    This is very sad news, and he will be missed.

  • KevinC

    That’s terrible news… my sincere condolences.

  • Chad

    I was really friends with Scott in high school. He was an awesome guy. Badminton under the streetlights at 2:00 in the morning followed by orange slurpees and questionable nachos at the 7-11. Shouting ‘Simprini’ out of my 74 Ford Galaxy at random pedestrians.

    I’m sad that we fell out of touch after high school, this has made me think about all the times we spent together. We did a number of plays together, watched holy grail and flying circus at Jeremy’s house (our third partner in crime), hated on an arse named Jonah constantly through high school (long story), and just generally goofed off a lot. He was smart, funny, and probably a little world weary even then.

    It’s hard to know what events line up in a person’s life to make them want to do something like this, but it’s important to know that it’s never the answer.

  • Erica

    He was a dear friend to me for many years. I’m grateful to you for writing this lovely piece. I’m truly heartbroken and can’t quite believe he won’t be showing up for dinner anymore.

  • Marc and Evelyn Sharrow

    Our hearts sank when we received the phone call about Scott. He worked for us when he lived in Bellingham. We always enjoyed his company and he made coming to work fun. He had a great smile that always made you think that he was up to something. We still have the pictures of Scott proudly walking down the aisle at Brad and Robin’s wedding.

  • Emily

    Thank you Tom. This is a lovely piece.

  • Marc and Evelyn Sharrow

    …and here is the rest of my post. Hope Scott gets a laugh out of this!

    wedding

    (EDIT BY TOM CHICK: Marc and Evelyn, sorry about that. Word Press freaks out when you paste in an apostrophe, quote mark, or em dash. I fixed your initial post. And thanks so much to those of you posting about Scott. I think I speak for all us here on this site when I say it means a lot to us that you’re willing to share your memories with us.)

  • Fred

    RIP

  • Casey

    I knew Scott when he was much younger. I am friends with his sister. It was so enjoyable to listen to the podcast.

    An incredible tribute that you wrote Tom.

    RIP Scott, you were a great guy!

  • julie nelson

    Dear Scott–
    We never met, but I heard of your passing through a friend of yours. I read your poetry, I studied your photos, I listened to your gentle, sincere voice. And strangely enough, I feel like a part of me is gone. Perhaps you represent a part in all of us that feels the pain of existence too deeply. I feel your absence. There is something unique about you (yes, that’s present tense)….perhaps you are an old spirit and you accomplished your mission during your short time you shared with us. For the memories you left behind in the hearts of those who love you, thank you. May your spirit soar.

  • Anonymous

    He will be very missed. Love you Scott!!!

  • http://www.facebook.com/#!/home.php?sk=group_161713293886264 Natalie O’Neal

    I lived down the street from Scott and was fortunate enough to befriend him after a brief stint at the same company in Eugene. I have created a memorial group on Facebook and wanted to share. If any of you are in the area, there will be a small, informal service in Portland but the details are not quite worked out yet. The memorial page would be the best place to keep an eye on for these details: http://www.facebook.com/#!/home.php?sk=group_161713293886264

    I remember talking to Scott over a burger and brew about this podcast. He was concerned that he wouldn’t have enough to cover a 2 hour show, something I knew wouldn’t be an issue. I kept forgetting to listen to it, and even now I still haven’t, but I just can’t do it quite yet. I am torn between absolute devastation (a predominant feeling over the last week) and a calming peace because he is now at rest.

    Scott, I love you dearly and can’t begin to express my sadness in your absence. Somehow, saying, “I miss you,” just doesn’t cut it. I wish I was half as articulate as you.

  • WarrenD

    I come to gaming and gaming forums to help get through life’s tough times, when they both converge at the same place…great sadness.

    You will be in my thoughts Scott/Mink.

  • Dan Powell

    I was deeply saddened today to read in the newspaper the sad news of Scott McKinnon’s death. I was his photography teacher this last term. Scott dropped the class, all of his classes I believe, right at the end of the term, which was so surprising to me at the time because he loved being there and was involved deeply in the study of conceptual photography. Ironically, I offered him some different options, including an incomplete.

    Scott was a very special person, intelligent, insightful, perceptive, extremely talented. He was extraordinarily kind, good natured, and sensitive. Scott had depth and gravity, which made him stand out from most of the other younger students. I liked him very much, and felt fortunate to have him in this class, as he significantly raised the bar for everyone else. The entire class liked him very much. I only wish I could have been astute enough to perceive a problem, but I imagine this is a feeling many of us have that didn’t know him well. I believe that people liked him so much because he appeared to enjoy life so much and he seemed so filled with good will toward all. I am rocked by his death; I can only imagine the sorrow of those who knew him well.

  • Sandy McKinnon

    Dear Mr. Chick , I would like to thank you for your memorial to my son Scott, He so enjoyed the time he spent with you and mentioned to me he thought of you as a friend he had known for a very long time but had only met, He was such a light in my life and now I sometimes feel I am wandering in the dark,. We in his family had no idea this was coming, though we knew He had battled depression after his wife sought the company of another man , ,, He loved and he lost, he just could never get beyond the pain He was tortured as many very creative people seem to be, However in the past few months I thought things were looking better, he seemed his old self and appeared to be regaining his spirit, little did I know that he had been planning his exit for sometime and as with almost everything he did it was well thought out and done in a way to cause as little pain as possible for me and his brothers and sister,,Our lives were full with him and there will never be a day that I will not feel the loss, Hw wrote a beautiful letter explaining his reason, asking for forgiveness and explaining many things but there will always be unanswered questions, and they will forever remain as such.. Scott did not believe there is anything after death but peace, no place in the clouds or a chance at rebirth, which is another added sorrow,, the thought of never meeting him again is very painful for me, I am hoping he was wrong about this, Thank you again for writting such a kind note about my son,..

  • Amanda (a photography classmate)

    Dear Scott,

    We miss you. You helped me out so much last term. Our discussions in Conceptual Strategies really helped me hone my ideas and work through my processes. Thank you for your willingness to listen, and your openness to share life. I remember meeting you in the photo lab fall term; we weren’t even in class together, but you were just there, being present, and open and friendly…we started chatting somehow, and I am grateful that we did.

    We talked about you in class today with Dan. Most of our conceptual Strategies class now has Dan again for Advanced. People commented on how much you always contributed to the class discussions, and how you challenged us all to be better through your thoughtful comments and your intelligent projects. Thank you for your presence in our lives and in our art-making. We will miss you.

    We are planting a tree in your honor, hopefully on campus or in alton baker park. May your soul be blessed, and be at peace.

  • Mark Lahren

    I’m a relatively new member of the forum, so I never got to exchange any messages with him, but we did share a love of pinball. And as such, I really enjoyed listening to the podcast. He seemed like a guy I would have loved to hang around with.

    RIP Scott.
    And condolences to his family and friends.

  • Ericadunbar

    I just learned of Scott’s passing. My sister and I were good friends with him when we were kids. My sister more so as I was the baby sister that followed them everywhere, lol. My mother instantly loved him and he called her mom. I was supposed to be a boy named Scott Allen, and instead I was a girl named Erica, but hey, my mom got her Scott eventually. We rode bikes, we bowled alot, we were all great friends. He was a brother to me and my sister. I will miss you Scott. Have fun hanging with Tanya. Take care of each other until I get there would ya?

    Love,
    Erica